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- Can you introduce yourself ?
- How many pregnancies have you had?
- Have you doubted your ability to carry a pregnancy to term?
- In what state of mind were you during the beginning of your pregnancy for your first son?
- How did you overcome these fears?
- When did you manage to believe in this pregnancy and in what state of mind were you?
- You had 3 other children afterwards, did you have any difficulties having them?
- What have you done to try to ease your anxieties during these new pregnancies?
- What message would you like to convey to a woman going through another pregnancy after a miscarriage?
Can you introduce yourself ?
I'm Marion, I'll be 39 in a few days. I was a medical secretary for 17 years and I am now a stay-at-home mom to take care of my 4 children.
I also manage my MarionButtercup Instagram account, for more than 10 years, with always the same passion for photography, makeup and everything related to femininity and family.
How many pregnancies have you had?
I experienced 9 pregnancies in all, including 5 miscarriages: 4 before my first child was born and alive, then another after this first.
You therefore experienced several miscarriages before carrying your first pregnancy to term. At what stage of development did they take place?
The first two took place at the very beginning of pregnancy, around 5 weeks.
The third, one of the most painful in many different ways, was at 8 weeks…
The fourth, and first with my husband, took place at 7 a.m., after seeing the heart beat, but "not as quickly as expected" according to the doctors.
The fifth, even though I had been lucky enough to have already given birth, was the most difficult of all. It took place at 10 sa.
Have you doubted your ability to carry a pregnancy to term?
Oh yes, I doubted it so much that with my husband, after my fourth miscarriage and first by his side, we had considered adopting, so that I would no longer suffer from losing all my babies, because it made me too sad. We were so powerless in the face of these failures… I had wanted to be a mother since I was 9 years old, and coming from a large family, I did not envisage for a second a life without children, and yet I almost died. resign to it.
In what state of mind were you during the beginning of your pregnancy for your first son?
It was therefore my fifth pregnancy, the fifth time that a positive pregnancy test came to honor me. I did this test, in the presence of my husband, after my period was 6 days late, and we cried with sadness when we saw this “+”. We hugged each other and said, "Come on, we'll see." Personally, I couldn't believe it at all, our living conditions were at their lowest: staying with a friend in a dilapidated country house, without a job, without anything at all... but you have to believe that in one way or another another, the planets had aligned! Yes, I feared this umpteenth miscarriage, I went to each gyno appointment without honestly believing it.
How did you overcome these fears?
I never got over my anxieties. Pregnancy after pregnancy, the same fears inhabited me, I never knew how to get rid of them. I would have preferred to tell you that I found the solution, but the trauma of all these miscarriages left me with serious consequences. I never knew how to live a serene pregnancy unfortunately.
When did you manage to believe in this pregnancy and in what state of mind were you?
Of course, a little devil on my shoulder came to remind me from time to time that this happiness could end overnight, but the baby's blows reassured me even more!
You had 3 other children afterwards, did you have any difficulties having them?
No, none, I'm lucky (or not depending on your point of view) to get pregnant very quickly every time. The tests were quickly conclusive for me. After having managed to give birth once, I thought my body was cured of this curse that I imagined being a victim of all those years ago, which is why I had such a bad time with the last miscarriage, among other things. I really felt betrayed by my own body. I wanted him terribly.
But life put a great gynecologist in my path with whom I was able to identify the cause of these miscarriages and get treated during the three pregnancies that followed, thank you life!
What have you done to try to ease your anxieties during these new pregnancies?
With my husband, we talk a lot. And he kept saying to me, “Anyway, we can't do anything about it. If you have to have this baby you will have it, otherwise it's because life had decided otherwise, and we'll start over as many times as necessary, but we'll have them our (2, then 3, then 4) children ! and I tried to tell myself that he was right.
For my last pregnancy, in the fall of 2021, I had finally acquired a certain wisdom , which allowed me to talk to my baby, in my head, with my hand on the lower abdomen, in the most complicated moments. It calmed me enormously, but it took nine pregnancies for that.
What message would you like to convey to a woman going through another pregnancy after a miscarriage?
I would like to tell him: your body knows that you can create life. Trust him and trust yourself !
The miscarriage is a hard ordeal , but it is overcome (especially if it is unique), what does not kill us makes us stronger.
Talk to your baby, as tiny as he is, he hears you, he carries with him the message of this little star that will shine forever above you.
Don't stay on your failure, stay positive , you'll get there, you'll get there this time!
